Dear Mum...

Blog written by 'My Mind Outlined' ‏@mymindoutlined

Blog written by 'My Mind Outlined' ‏@mymindoutlined, March 2013.

It is Mother's Day this weekend and below is a letter I have written to my own mum which I have shared on my blog for two reasons. Firstly I want to say a public thank you to my mum for all the unconditional love and support she has shown me during some difficult times. This has been something I have been unable to do before now as I have not been open about my OCD. Secondly, I want to highlight the impact that OCD has, not only on the sufferer of the condition, but also on those close to them.

Dear Mum,

Twenty years ago Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) forced its way into my life, and as a consequence it entered yours too. You have had to live with this terrible, debilitating condition and watch helplessly as it took control over your only daughter's life over the years.

Until recently you were one of the few people who knew about my condition and the hold it had over me. During this time you have always been there for me. I have been able to rely on you throughout my life and you have never let me down, even though at times I have let you down. You have supported me constantly and been there by my side when none of my friends or extended family members knew a thing. I am lucky that you and dad fought so hard to get me access to early treatment all those years ago. Since then you have come with me to my doctors appointments and done all you can to see me get better.

We both need to be free of this awful condition and I am no longer going to allow OCD to take over both our lives.

Throughout all this you have been at the receiving end of some of my tears, anger and despair when OCD has succeeded in its bullying ways. I am sorry for all those times. I know you get frustrated with me on occasions and this is understandable. I get frustrated with myself. I get frustrated at the hold OCD seems to have over me and how it has affected all our lives. But you remain firmly by my side. OCD may have taken a lot of things away from me, but thankfully it has never scared you away.

After all the years of virtual silence, this is the first Mother's Day on which I can publicly say thank you for everything you have done for me. You have been there for me and I want to express my gratitude for the sacrifices you have made as a result. If it wasn't for you I am certain that I would not have been able to achieve all that I have done in my life. I owe so much to you because you have done all you can to help me lead as normal a life as possible.

I will soon be receiving CBT and I am doing this for you as well as myself. I want you to stop having to worry about me and live your own life. We both need to be free of this awful condition and I am no longer going to allow OCD to take over both our lives.

Thank you mum xxx

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